maling mali. sabi ko last time instead of "there", "their". fuck. i'm so losing my english. anyway, turns out i'm not gonna need it this sem. i'm taking spanish, and fil 40.
fil 40. fucking fil 40. got the right subject, got the wrong prof. i cannot believe the requirements of this course. wrong eh. wrong. i actually momentarily lost my zest for life because of this. hahaha.
anyway, i still haven't dyed my hair. i'm chicken shit (thanks jb for reminding me how chicken i am about a looooot of things. because of that, i don't wanna leave my house anymore. haha). can't even eat japanese, or even a stupid chocolate candy i haven't heard of. i don't even like dogs, scared of them too. i'm afraid of losing things that's why i've developed a very inconvenient compulsion of checking my bag every fucking minute. i can't swim, i'm afraid of drowning. i can't cook, i'm afraid of burning my hand. the fear would be normal if it were some complicated fried dish, but no. i can't cook instant noodles because the steam hurts.
all i need is a drink. unfortunately i can't even have my nite at home 'cause my dad would find out and as it turns out, he hasn't fully accepted my drinking. and i have tons of homework. and i don't like anyone right now.
something's happening to me. i can't think of anyone i hate. i've been digging into my deep pile of sama ng loob but i still can't find a single person worth noting in our burn book (yeah, we're college students and we have a burn book). most of my friends put boys there, but i honestly can't think of a male-type human i care enough about to hate. so girl nalang. unfortunately, i don't care much about the women either. damn. i don't know if being completely apathetic is worse than having so much hate.
ok. last friday, i had my palm read by a psychic (actually, literal eh, he's a psych major so...) and you know what he said? the very, very first thing he said? "Mukhang di ka mag-aasawa. Parang ayaw mo, or you're not the type." all hail queen julie. she's gonna die alone. hahaha. pero steady lang, i don't believe in fortune-telling anyway (i just enjoy it. it's fun). but it was insanely hilarious to be told that you're not getting married. whooreehoo.
spanish exam tomorrow! can't wait to see what my evil prof (but i love him, i do) has in store for us.
unstable ako eh. i keep on tripping and bumping on things. wrong. haha. basta ang weird. kaya nga ang sakit ng katawan ko in weird places. but i'm happy. i don't know why. maybe i shouldn't question my happiness and just be thankful. naks. thankful ampota.
putek. ang masama nito, unti unti nakong nawawalan ng pakealam sa mga tao sa paligid ko. wrong. ayon. kaya siguro ako masaya. kasi wala akong pake. wrong. haha. oh well. whatever makes me sleep at night. i love you God. sorry di ako nakakapagmass. hay nako.
k. wala eh. nothing's happening to me. haha. and i love it. the steadiness feels great.
anyway, dayum. i'm so steady, can't even think of anything to write about.
yeah, my new notepad is pretty. it's pearly white. very pretty.
i suck at videoke. dayum. and my family has accepted my drinking. we celebrated with vodka. yahoo.
i've never seen an orange ballpen. i need an orange ballpen.
i'm regretting pan pil 19. too many students, too sedated prof, too high up classroom. wrong.
we're going to pangasinan. yay.
i'm getting my hair dyed dark brown copper mahogany reflect. imagine that.
i want science high school/from the province friends.
i'm not loving the drama, it's getting old.
globe is ok.
sun's better.
my file case is small. but i want a smaller one.
do not mistake this for a free verse. i do not write poetry.
i want a big collegiate thesaurus because my vocabulary is not collegiate enough. i don't even know what collegiate means.
gly's transferred to UP, ayla's globe. i love it.
i really like fac4. they're fun, low maintenance people.
i might go out with gly and trix on friday. yeah, trix is back from canada.
cielo's back from singapore, too.
my relatives will come visit the philippines this july. i will be fat this july.
i enjoy being alone now.
i've learned that staying mum about things that aren't about to change is the best thing you could do because too many people have too much to say about things they do not fully understand and that annoys me too much.
i've learned that when people live meaningless lives, they give meaning to meaningless things.
i've learned that sometimes you have to stick with something you're used to just because.
i've learned that if you don't avoid something you find unacceptable soon enough, you'd learn to accept it and it would suck once you realize what has happened.
how friggin original, julie. i bet there are like a thousand blogs na yan ang title. it's so overrated. i just had to ride the whole devil's number thing.
anyway... i was supposed to have a picnic with ayla and gly. but no. hindi natuloy. partly because i planned it and you know how my plans end up; and because gly left us to rot in katipunan for three hours. in fairness, glynel was very uhmm, motherly about it. like a real mom who had to take care of business (which was to watch omen with the boyfriend) she left us at our play place (katipunan) with baon (P50.00). ayon.
ok, obviously i'm not a maneater. but this is my favorite song right now. lovet.
Timbaland:] Take it back, take it back...
Verse 1- Everybody look at me, me I walk in the door you start screaming Come on everybody what chu here for? Move your body around like a nympho Everybody get your necks to crack around All you crazy people come on jump around I want to see you all on your knees, knees You either want to be with me, or be me!
Chorus- Maneater, make you work hard Make you spend hard Make you want all, of her love She's a maneater make you buy cars make you cut cords make you fall, fall in love She's a Maneater, make you work hard Make you spend hard Make you want all, of her love She's a maneater make you buy cars make you cut cords Wish you never ever met her at all!
Verse 2- And when she walks she walks with passion when she talks, she talks like she can handle it when she asks for something boy she means it even if you never ever seen it everybody get your necks to crack around all you crazy people come on jump around you doing anything to keep her by your side because, she said she love you, love you long time!
Chorus- Maneater, make you work hard Make you spend hard Make you want all, of her love She's a maneater make you buy cars make you cut cords make you fall, fall in love She's a Maneater, make you work hard Make you spend hard Make you want all, of her love She's a maneater make you buy cars make you cut cords Wish you never ever met her at all!
[Chants]
Chorus- Maneater, make you work hard Make you spend hard Make you want all, of her love She's a maneater make you buy cars make you cut cords make you fall, fall in love She's a Maneater, make you work hard Make you spend hard Make you want all, of her love She's a maneater make you buy cars make you cut cords Wish you never ever met her at all!
Outro- Never ever met her at all! you wish you never ever met her at all! you wish you never ever met her at all! you wish you never ever met her at all! you wish you never ever met her at all! you wish you never ever met her at all! you wish you never ever met her at all! you wish you never ever met her at all!
