i joined UP PMS (pre-med society). i guess it's a sign. magkaliga kami ni dr. calayan. yahoo! haha. but i think the app process is going to be fun. they're all friendly and fun looking (huh?) and it's the first org i'm applying for so itotodo ko na ang pangangareer nito. actually for the two hours that we were with pms, i was smiling like a pa-impress overachiever with evil plans of toppling over whoever's on top, which of course, wasn't my intention. please, if i wanted to do that, i would've joined sigao-up. once i get to that coveted activism summit, i'd convert all the members into neurotically happy people who couldn't care less about the bedamned state of our country. imagine atom, screaming at the background, helpless, grungier than usual, reminding people how they used to hate every person who happens to have enough money to cheat their way to office. his life's work, crumbling like jennifer love hewitt's sad career. fun! ay shet, crush ko pala siya. i take it back.
anyway, naplano ko na ngang magoverachieve sa aking extra curriculars dahil hindi naman ako marerecognize sa pagsusunog ko ng kilay at ng kung anu-ano pang bagay dahil nga 'di daw pwedeng mag-honor ang walang PE. lecheng bored seniors yan. if you're bored with your senior year (which really shouldn't be happening if you weren't so effing OC and would have had to cram all your requirements on your last year just like everyone else...) then go get some...thing other than PE. pero hayamunanga... mukang nagbabadya naman ang di maipaliwanag (sa parents) na grado sa mga subjects na kinuha ko. lalo na diyan sa linchak na chemistry na yan. major (lab instructor) hates me. i can feel it. nakupu. pati pala kasaysayan. taragis. wazhapening? labonizationalitivity (isang salitang may limang morphemes. ayos may natututunan ako sa ling).
my goodness! ang pangit non ah. it's so caffeine-driven. eh ang kaso di ako nagkape. san galing ang energy level magtype ng ganon?
naisip ko pala. kung mabuting tao ka tapos masama yung mga nangyayari sayo, at yung masasamang tao, puros mabubuti o masasayang bagay ang nararanasan, sapat bang dahilan ito upang naising maging masamang tao nalang? kung hindi ang sagot mo, ayos ka brad. samakatuwid, wala ring saysay na ipagnibugho mo ang mga problema mo sa buhay at isisisi sa Diyos ang sa wari mo'y pagiging "unfair" Niya. hindi naman kasi talaga tamang maging mapagsamantala at halang ang kaluluwa, kaya bakit mo sila kaiinggitan? bakit mo gugustuhin ang buhay na mayroon sila? wag na, uy.
gusto ko talagang kinakausap ang sarili ko.