my goodness. this is not my day. haha. i'm just a little disappointed because earlier today (around nine am) i wrote on the corner of my handy dandy psych soc notebook that "this is my day." mali eh. siguro natuloy pa kung hindi ko sinulat yun at jininx by doing so.
ay wait, realization. i change my mind. this day has been nice to me. i got a 9/8 and a 7/8 on our chem *insert term here*, which is very lucky, considering that among my classmates, i'm probably the most "lost". come to think of it, i'm always lost. lost sa lessons, lost sa conversation and just literally lost when it comes to directions (my personal favorite). i'm really lucky to have "epiphanies" when i need them. thank You God.
i watched trl "laguna beach special" yesterday and i saw Lo, my favorite LB character. she's really fun, kind of like Paris Hilton, but less stupid, less selfish, less rich, less useless. yuck ang sama. but really, sometimes i feel sorry for Paris. it's like she lived but never lived at all (cheese). ok, some may argue the opposite because she has been to a hundred VIP parties, has done a reality show, has milked a cow, has delivered best selling sex videos... but when you take time to think of what she has accomplished (and not just the spill-over of her parent's wealth) well, she'd amount to nothing. yuck ang sama at ang self-righteous. that's why i don't want to die having only parties, fame and cow milk under my belt. i want to do something worthwhile and unselfish at least a hundred times before i die. siguro nga ginagamit ko lang ito pang-alleviate ng guilt. pero i think it's nice that i feel guilty about not being useful, at least i know my conscience is still there and has not drifted away during one of my daydreaming sessions.
anyway, yun nga. napaisip ako. parang wala pa akong nagagawang maganda. pano kung mamatay na ako? nakakahiya naman.
kaya ang solusyon diyan: maging healthy para di muna mamatay! kakain ako ng marami (kala mo ang onti pa ng kinakain ko sa lagay na 'to eh) para lumakas. bali yun na yun. yun na ang point nitong entry na ito. kumain ng marami. bueno, hasta luego (i'm trying to practice my spanish while it's still fresh.)