wow. i just realized how big my real problem is: my faith is starting to falter. my relationship with God is not at its best, i guess. I just don't feel His presence as much as I did before. or maybe i've just been less sensitive...
sometimes, religious (for the lack of a better, less discriminating term) people have a harder time containing their frustrations. we often question why bad things happen to us, why we can't always have things our way, when we have so much faith in Him. Why do good things happen to those who don't believe in Him, or who would not even take 30 seconds of their time for thanksgiving? sometimes it feels like our faith is more of a burden, like something that heightens our expectations of how things should be, thus making bigger room for disappointment. but then maybe we take our faith for granted. maybe faith is the blessing in itself. the fact that we have the faith makes us more blessed than any other freakishly blessed but spiritually dry person out there. thank You God for my faith.
anyway, just in case you're feeling the same way right now, here's a reassurance: God loves you. If you can't feel His love, try being more sensitive. block out the negativity and let God's love overwhelm you. God bless, brothers and sisters!
